Always Falling Up or Down

General Life update

2009-08-21T09:33:00.000-07:00

Hello all!

I am not dead. In fact I am very much alive. I know this cause of the crazy stress that I have been dealing with for like the last 3 months. There is no good place to start. Not even the beginning. Things have just become complicated and anyone who knows me knows that while I may love and enjoy complications in books, TV dramas, and maybe even a smiggin in other peoples lives... I hate them in mine. I am big into planning and organization and the world does not always bend to my plans... First off a while a go I started getting these little bumps on my hands, I thought they were from rock climbing. They ended up being bed bug bites! It took like two months to figure out what they were. Gross just totally icky. I did get rid of them with a visit from Orkin. Who were (at a price) helpful.

So much has happened since i last posted i had to go back and read to see what you all don't know, i also think a list will work better and be far less coloured by my frustrations.

So in a quick list here we go...

LOML got a new better paying job then he had before!
I got a huge raise at work and a title change to be the team lead!!!!!
Had an engagement party that went really well with lots of family at our house
Had a talk with HR about house stuff that was bothering me and LOML
Had another talk with HR about house stuff at the bequest of her BF cause of First talk
HR drops out of wedding night before we are getting dresses for all the bridesmaids
LOML and I ask HR to move out in a month (stuff is too complicated)
We get amazing dresses for the bridesmaids! they look so cute
I ask LOML sister to take HR's place in wedding (it will be so cute cause she will get to be escorted by her husband)
We find out we have bedbugs and that they are living in HR's room, and have been falling down the vent on to our bed.
Get rid of our bed and freak out about bugs!
Get house exterminated
HR moves out and we give her a bill for damages to the room
We wait to see if she will pay
Got b12 shot
I send out wedding invites to everyone
Made list of stuff to fix around house...way to much time money and things to do
finished dance class
Signed up for the year for 3 classes one in Tap, ballet and then another in Jazz

So what have I learned. No more renting out rooms to our friends unless we are sure we can live with them. Planning a wedding is hard work. And even if you make lots of money life happens how its going to happen and that's just the way of it.

So now that all of that is out of the way and you are now abreast with my life I can talk about these things in greater detail or just let you wonder. I think that that is plenty good for an update. Now all I have to do is keep it up! I miss you blog! I will try not to leave you again for so long....

Its alive! Alive!! AGHHHH!

2009-06-22T09:28:00.001-07:00

Okay so I am alive and so much has happened but I don't have time to post... I am however working on a long long long post so stay tuned!!

Loves!

The pope is a Penis....

2009-03-18T09:33:00.000-07:00

his guard is a condom and the outside is HIV/AIDS trying to get to him.....

It all makes sense with this CNN article Oh how I love metaphors...

Pope

Book Club... What has happened to you?

2009-03-17T12:59:00.000-07:00

So HR's best friend Crafty has a book club but we seem to be very bad at keeping up with it... For Febuary we read The girl with the Dragon Tattoo..... It was very good.... Maybe Crafty will see this and we will get to have a meeting to talk about it... and get the next book... wow its already halfway into March... we are a crapy book club.....

Yay books!!!

Post from yesterday....

2009-03-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

Today is Monday, and as with every weekday I trudge into work riding the bus to the metro and then the metro to my stop and then walk to my building. As soon as I sit down with my Monday coffee I wait for the computer to boot and eat whatever snack I have brung with me for Breakfast. Today it is green grapes. I then after the long period it takes to start my computer I open email and then look at CNN as I drink my coffee. Everyday for the last 3 or 4 weeks the news has been full of stories about people who have lost jobs and are in terrible situations and have had to ask for help. As some may know the reality of the economy hit home with me last week when LOML lost his job, it was a huge surprise to us but when I step back and look I should have known it was coming. He worked for a non-profit that runs based on donations. Bad economy=no donations. Thank goodness for my new job or we would be in trouble. After careful consideration and much fretting I realized that his job loss does not affect how we live or have lived because of my new job but I stop and think how would I be handling it if I could not pay the mortgage or have any monthly savings for the wedding. Would I have to ask for help like the people who share their stories on CNN. They say how they are humbled by the fact that they have no money and are forced to take help from others. I am a very stubborn person and in my life have refused help when I needed it most. I think that it builds character, and had made me who I am today. I hate asking for help. So, I don't think I would be able to do what these people have done.IE Ask for help. I have worked so hard to be where I am and could and would never go back. But reality says that if forced I would have to deal with it. I guess I would as I have done in the past fight and claw my way back to what I want. I think that once LOML gets a new job I will have to help someone out. I feel for those people who are fighting to have some of what they had because now its a little more real then it way before. I am lucky that I have what I have and while I have earned it and may deserve it, it could be taken from me at anytime.

OMG an UPDATE!!

2009-03-11T11:48:00.001-07:00

Yes my dear readers, I have not forgotten about you. I have just been very busy with life. I have a new job and much has happened since I last left off with you. The Ski Trip was interesting if not hurtful on my butt and pride. I am a very clumsy person but even so I have never fallen so much in my life. I chose to try snowboarding... it was awful not at all like skateboarding... Way to fast for me. I was put in the remedial class after a while "I was with others so it was not so bad" then put in the remedial remedial... all while LOML watched and laughed at me... When the instructor had given up on the rest of my class, LOML came over and said we should go down the bunny slope together.... I put it off by asking if we could get some food or at least water... My butt really hurt by this point. when we finally got back from lunch we slowly made our way to the bunny slope.... on our way there I fell totally wiped out...and sat for a min till I totally gave up on doing anything... After pleading with LOML to not make me do any more and telling him I would wait for him to finish so at least one of us would be having fun he bribed me in to one run down the hill.... I got on the lift... no problems... I got off the lift.... I slid down the little mound of snow on my ass trying not to get hit by the lift... but they did not have to stop it for me... so I was told I was successful at getting off the thing. Then we started down the hill.... it was awful.. I would get going and about every thirty feet fall on my butt and someone get my feet tangled, yes they were both on only one board... how I did this I don't know.... Then about halfway down trying to avoid an injured person I fell hard and twisted my ankle. I was done!!! so I limped down the hill and waited for LOML to finish and to go do one more hill. Feeling foolish and hurt with my foot swelling up I decided I hate snowboarding.... LOML did try to get me to trade in the snowboard for ski's but I was to hurt to get that a try. I will next time though... other then that we did go tubing since our room was not going to be ready yet. I found that soooooo much fun.... It was really fun! That I could do all day! Then we check in to the hotel and relaxed in the pool and the hot tub.... best part of the day... hot tub!!
Other then that I started work at the new place and was startled to find out that the guy who was supposed to be teaching me only had a week left. And that I was expected to stand up and fill his position. So work has been keeping me quite busy... its worth it though and I feel my self learning so much.
On a sadder note LOML was Laid off on Monday of this week. The economy is hurting the Non-profits that he worked for so IT was sent away to conserve money. LOML was thinking about leaving anyway but this makes it harder but not so bad with my new job..... I just want him to be happy and not as depressed as he was the last time he was out of work. I think that that was one of the darkest times trying to be everything and not feeling that it was getting me anywhere. It also to me shows how much we love each other cause if anything was going to break us up it would have been that time in our lives. This time it will be better and he already has some interviews lined up.
Puppy is fine and happy. And the wedding stuff progresses.... even with my one horrendous mistake.... I am doing my own paper products for the wedding and I decided to use a custom stamp... I was about half way done with all of the invitation after having everyone look at them to make sure everything was okay.... when someone I think it was HR noticed that a word was spelled wrong... it was an important one too! so I had to rip apart all my hard work and start over... I have prepped all of the invitations now and just need to stamp them all and add finishing touches. The wedding is only 6 months away so I need to get on the ball with the rest of the stuff! Although I really really need the addresses.
well this was a long entry but I needed to do some catch up.... I will let everyone know more soon and I will try try try to update more even thought life has gotten busy!
Laters!

Making a logo

2009-02-10T12:18:00.001-08:00

So I have been challenged to make a logo for the MB... in my boredom at work playing with PS here is my first attempt... it was pretty easy but turned out okay...

One Crazy Day...

2009-02-05T10:45:00.000-08:00

I am sorry for temporarily forgetting about you my few readers! But as you know lots has been going on and changing for me so I kinda of have an excuse... please don't stop reading!!! Yesterday LOML and I did something that neither of us had ever done! We bought a new car from a dealer. Well it was a used car but its the newest car either of us have ever owned. Of course we did sell our old van in order to get this new one. Yes its a minivan! Everyone who we talked to just assumed we had kids... or were having kids.... They were just perplexed as to why two young (and amazingly attractive) people were buying a minivan... and honestly I think they might be right but LOML loves it. And it does have some cool features like a DVD player and remote start, and all the seats stow and go! It will be great for camping.

Speaking of kids.... Everyone seems to think that I will have kids soon. HR had 2 dreams that I was prego... and then HR's best friend, Crafty, says that I am only keeping my desire a secret from myself!

Dear Ovaries,
I do not want babies right now so if you would kindly expel all potential half of baby DNA crap every month on time that would be great.

Thanks
Falling for Fall

4 Things that happened today... that I must share...

2009-01-30T11:00:00.000-08:00

I feel the overwhelming need to share a few things with you all today..

1) I had a huge knot in my hair (just now) and today is the one day I forget to bring a hair bush.... If you can believe it my hair is longer now this it is in the picture I posted a few days ago. That picture being from October. So any who, I went in to the work kitchen at the idea of a coworker I will need to come up with a name for her later.... got a fork and yes I brushed out the knot with a fork in my cubical.

2) As I was driving back to work from home. I was passing though a construction zone and happened to notice that a man was sitting on one of those green metal boxes that holds all the wires for the lights and stuff. He was sitting with his legs spread open and holding something between them. What I saw was an ark of clear water coming from his hand... yes he was on the side of the road facing the road! No he was not peeing.... he was emptying cable conduit... and at least that is what I found out as I drove by him... From my original angle it looked like he was peeing.... weird!

3)I PUT IN MY 2 WEEKS! WOOT WOOT!

4) In my boredom at work I labeled the fork I fixed my hair with a Dingle Hopper.... If you are cool you will no why!

Changes, Changes, Changes

2009-01-30T10:19:00.000-08:00

Okay folks.... As many of you know (if you read my blog or sad ramblings) I have been looking for a job off and on. I did have a good prospect in December but it ended up not working out at the sub and prime on the contract switched(If you don't get it don't worry). So leaving it at that I only continued with mild interest at head hunters who called me. Then this week in a flurry of events I find my self interviewing for a good company with nice people. It was scary.... they were very intimidating and I thought for sure that I was not going to get the job... but then yesterday as I was parking the car at home after work I got THE call..... They had offered me the job! So here you have it... In two weeks... yes I said yes and then proceeded to give my two weeks to Boss Lady this morning, I will have a new job! doing much more then I do now so I will be losing blogging time at work but... I think you will survive. Its going to be so very cool! Other changes are that since I got this job I will sadly have to give up my Blackberry... and if you have every had a Blackberry you will understand how tragic this is....the very thought was somewhat traumatizing. So with the permission of LOML we went out to the Verizon store and picked up the Blackberry Storm... the IPhone competitor! And its soooooo much cooler the an IPhone! I am in love with it! so I now have a new number that I will have to give out to everyone I know. But on the plus side they did transfer all the numbers over.... so at least I don't have to re-input them all.

well that is all for now....

laters!

How you know when your office has a Stomach virus?

2009-01-29T12:13:00.000-08:00

This is very easy to tell... you don't look around and see how many people are out... You just go to the restroom.... Here you can tell that someone has gotten fed up with people stinking up the room by the fact that someone in the office has come in and put out 2 room fresheners and a HUGE can of Lysol Spray... That says on it in bold lettering "Do not Take...Just Use!". Mind you the restroom has about 5 stalls and 2 handicapped stalls so its not a huge room... so I think all the sent is a little over kill. But it goes to show you that a stomach virus is going around and everyone has too much work to do to stay home so they can poop in peace.

By the way here is a link to a fun site about poop. Please enjoy!

Laters!

Totally Awesome!

2009-01-29T07:42:00.000-08:00

http://www.kxan.com/dpp/news/Road_signs_warn_of_zombies

Totally Awesome!

25 things...

2009-01-28T09:24:00.003-08:00

So I got this on Facebook and decided I would put it here.... Enjoy!

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1. I have a secret list of things that I want to do before I die.
2. I love but can't stand my mother
3. I miss my best friend from HS
4. I let people think I'm stupid because when I was younger it was easier to make friends that way
5. I try to make everyone think that everything is easy for me but I try hard at all things I do
6. Failing for me is never an option
7. I want to have kids
8. I love pickle juice... and lettace yes together
9. One of the biggest goals in my life I did years before I ever dreamed possible: Buying a house
10. I love reading and read books very quickly
11. I have a dog that is perfect for me and Les
12. I wish that I could have gone to college
13. I am getting married
14. Halloween is my favorite holiday so much that I even considered a Halloween wedding
15. I don't believe in god or a higher power, but I do believe in Karma but I try to respect others beliefs
16. When I was younger I was Wiccan
17. I love Sailor Moon and have been reading and writing fan fiction for years
18. I am a closet geek and know way to much about Batman and X-Men for my own good
19. It taken me 2 days to come up with items for this list.
20. I like doing my taxes
21. I have been to Africa, Egypt!
22. I have a secret wish to have sex on a overnight train
23. I want to visit every continent before I die
24. I hate flying
25. If I had a superpower I would have the power to absorb or learn things just by watching once including other peoples powers.

What are you doing on Valentines day?

2009-01-26T10:13:00.000-08:00

So as you may know LOML's family thing wreaked havoc on my valentines day surprise for LOML. And they ended up moving it to another weekend after I canceled our trip reservations. So over the past weekend LOML and I were talking and we decided to go on a trip anyway. We are going Skiing.... I have never been but think I will try Snowboarding while LOML Ski's... I think I will kill myself and I generally hate the cold and snow but LOML is excited to go so plans have been made and HR is taking care of puppy that weekend since she will be in town. I am excited but will not only look like a giant marshmallow but I know I will end up hurt somehow.... Well at least LOML with be there to take care of me and keep me warm! ;)

Picture Time!

2009-01-26T09:34:00.000-08:00

I have been going though pictures a lot recently and today while looking around to see what I had stored on my work computer found this picture of me and LOML. He does not look very happy but we were taking the picture ourselves and trying to figure out the timing feature.... and by we I mean him so you can understand why I am happy and he looks like "damn camera! Honey why are you making me do this" The other reason I love this picture is that I look very skinny in it and look like my boobs are huge.... now I do have big boobs but this picture not only shows that but makes them look nice but also makes me look soooooooo skinny! I love it! I never put pictures up so you should be very excited everyone! :) also please don't be scared by my lack of make up. In my old age I have become very lax in putting it on!

How to have nice legs with only a little pain.

2009-01-26T07:38:00.000-08:00

Okay so once upon a time I had amazing legs! Yes its true! It was before sitting all day. But today, as I was walking to my car I begin thinking what was a key difference between then and now was.... there are a few however as I approached my car it was very quite and overcast. The only sound I could here was the sound of my heals clacking on the pavement. I find this sound to be very soothing and oddly satisfying. I have just started getting back to wearing heels and nice shoes... and as a result my legs have been slowly getting nicer and nicer! Back in the days of my amazing legs I wore heels all time! Hell! I even danced in a min of 2 inch heels. So here is the key to nice legs... Wear heels... everywhere. A, your legs will look longer B, you are taller C, your legs will tone up! Now the painful part is having your feet get used to it.... But I can tell you, its totally worth the pain!

PS It's totally okay to pretend you are the big boss lady and clack your way into the office on the marble tile! :)

When will the cold end?

2009-01-22T07:38:00.000-08:00

I really really really hate the cold. I guess it would be okay if I could stay inside all day. But since I have to go to work and have to let the dog out... I guess its not possible for me to like the cold. Today has been a good day.... I have gotten lots of things done... I did lots of prep yesterday evening when I was sick so I would not have to use my PTO however it was not enough to make up for my missed day so I am staying late today and tomorrow in order to make up the time. I felt really bad about missing a day but while I can work sick I will draw the line at vomiting! That is just something that should not be done outside the home.

Tomorrow is LOML's birthday! I don't have a gift for him really because he would guess it anyway, before I had a chance to give it to him... I hate that and he totally does it on purpose. Anyway we are planing a party for him and going out to dinner so he should be happy about that. I still don't know what if anything I should get him. We normally try to avoid getting stuff for each other unless the other one is there. But oh well. I can't believe that Jan. is almost over! LOML"S birthday came up so fast even he did not remember.

well laters!

Friday! Man, Its Cold!

2009-01-16T11:08:00.000-08:00

So today where I live it's very very cold! I hate the cold! So much! I can't wait for winter to be done and spring to come then summer and finally fall! I love fall, the colors and how calm it makes me. The rest of the year I spend worrying but fall is always like a rest for me mentally! And that is why I have chosen to have my wedding then. Weddings are stressful so I know I would have to hurt someone if i had done it any other time.

So far we are way on track for early completion of tasks. As some of you may know I am a little OCD when it comes to planning. I plan everything to every little detail. So despite it being like 9 months till the wedding I have completed every centerpiece and all flower stuff. Now I am working on getting the church nailed down. LOML and I are going tomorrow to FINIALY find out if we can have it there. I really want to do this for LOML and his mother since I feel this will honor his father's memory. I just hope that they don't have any silly rules about getting married in the church. I don't think they should have so much control over peoples lives. :( Like telling me that a person who does not know us is going to give us counselling. I mean we have lived together for like 3 years, I think we know what drives the other one crazy! That and I refuse to modify my dress in any way cause of an antiquated rule about shoulders showing...IF there is a god I am sure he knows what naked people look like! so shoulders should be no big deal. As you can see I am not a big organized religion person so getting married in a church is like a big scary deal for me..... I don't like it but I want LOML and his mom to be happy, and I like the idea. I have had people ask me if I am scared to get married and I have to say no, LOML and I have been though some hard times and it only made me realize how much I love him and how much I could not live with out him.

Other updates in life other then wedding stuff, job seach still goes on but I have a good offer on the table. House work is going on and the Robot and RD got most of the screening done but had to stop cuase it was to cold for the plastic. Today has been long and I am booking it outta work at like 3, as I have had no lunch and Puppy will be mad for being alone so long. Well this post turned out way different then I planned so I will end it for now.

Laters! :)

PS: Make the cold go away!

Murphy Beds

2009-01-14T12:13:00.000-08:00

I love the idea of a Murphy bed... perhaps it appeals to the kid in me who still likes the idea of having a secret hideout. So I have always wanted one so I have decided to build one. With LOML of course. Once upon a time I was an interior design major who could design and build basic furniture and create instructions for others to follow. It was just practical art. So this should be awesome! I found some really cool plans and this bed will be going in the guest room so that I can have more floor room for crafting. And LOML has agreed to get rid of our king size huge bed and use the sleigh bed in the guest room. I love that bed! But I did tell him we could keep the frame for the king size on in the attic for when we have more money to get a really nice king size mattress. Its gonna be awesome! Yay!

well laters!

Inspirational....

2009-01-12T12:40:00.000-08:00

Read this article on CNN.com, of everything I have read in the news this has to be one of the best.

http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/01/12/crossing.railroad.tracks/index.html

laters!

Diet....Sucks

2009-01-12T06:58:00.000-08:00

So I did try my best at the diet and it did work pretty well... even with my cheating...I lost a grand total of 5.5 lbs... However my downfall was salt... I totally craved salty foods... now this is pretty normal for me as I love love love salt... however this was far worse! So over all it worked but I am sure it would have worked better if I had really stuck to it and gone longer. I do think the water thing was pretty good. I am giving up soda and trying to drink only water and juice with maybe the occasional soda.

I have been doing a lot of wedding stuff lately and am very excited that it is getting closer... even if its 10 months away! I now am starting the work on my custom hand made invitations. They will be cool but getting everyone's freaking addresses together is SO hard! And I'm not even doing the family ones....just my friends! Oh well I guess I do have tons of time.

Well work is almost done so, even thought this was short I am going to end it as I don't have much to say! :)

Laters

Falling off the wagon..Like Opera!

2009-01-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

Okay so this diet thing totally sucks... I like food way to much!! So yesterday after about a day of being on the diet I fell off the proverbial wagon. So like Opera I am going to tell you all about it. When I got home from work around 4 I was totally doing okay but then temptation of a house full of food and the fact that my dinner time is normally after I get home from work. I ended up going back and forth with myself for like 20 min and eating 8 corn chips. I swear they were the best chips ever! I thought I was going to be okay after that so I had some more water and went on with the day till I had to go pick up LOML from the metro. Upon picking him up he told me we were invited out to dinner with RD and a friend of his. So we went and I did not eat but drank like a gallon of water, I think the waitress thought I was weird. So after this we went home and I was hungry but felt okay... that was... till we stayed up late and watched house and in the basement there was a box of cheese-it's, the white cheeder kind and they and the salty goodness called to me! So I ate 2 of them and savored the salt ( I love salt, I am sure I will have to talk about this unnatural love at some point so just a heads up.) for like 2 min... then decided it was not worth it and I would give up... so I ran upstairs and and jumped feet first off the wagon for some pita bread and a piece of sandwich meat! MMMMM it was sooooo goood!

Now I am tyring to make up for my discretion's today and drinking loads of water and not eating! I think I will allow myself a little food a day for a while to see how that works... cuase cold turkey sucks....mmmmm turkey.... maybe not the best analogy for this particular scenario. On the upside I did lose 1.5 lbs yesterday! :)

well I need to get back to work and such things...

Laters

New Diet...and stuff

2009-01-08T11:15:00.000-08:00

So I am trying this new diet. Its a fasting diet for 3 days maybe more if it works. All you drink is water. LOML's coworker is doing one or was doing one a few days ago, and it got me thinking that it had to be unhealthy. So why am I trying it you ask? If you were told that you could look 1 to 3 pounds a day and still be healthy and that it was even good for you... would you try? Well I did some research and finally looked up in medical journals what happens to your body and how this is different from when I was in High School and stopped eating all together. Well in high school for starters I did not drink any water. That's the key, and I did it for a long long time! Drinking the water lets you stay hydrated and drinking lots of it (as you have to do) helps flood out the system or detox your body. Then when you start eating again you eat less (smaller stomach size) and then you change your diet to eat only whole foods, and combine it with regular exercise. So the medical journals and doctors that were for and against it did have one thing to say in common. That was that when you don't eat that your digestive tract gets a rest from going and going and this rest lets it repair itself and even improve the linings. So with all of this information I have decided to try to not eat and only drink water for 3 days, really I need to go a week but wow that's a long time. The doctor that was kinda on the fence about it did say that for it to be effective try a short time first so you know how and what your body is doing. I will keep you updated on the progress and if it works! I do feel better drinking lots of water. :)

The stuff:
Okay, so I have a controversial topic to talk about. I don't know how people are going to receive it but I hope that its with open minds and with support. In the world today lots of people can't have kids and lots of people are sick. I personally believe that abortion is okay and while I would not do it ordinarily, I see that sometimes people and the baby that might have been would be better off. On the other hand some people just can't have kids no matter how hard they try and they need help. So if I have the ability to help someone I would want to. I am in the process of becoming an egg donor at a fertility center. I hope that my donation will help some couple (hetero or homo) to have kid that they will love. If given the chance I would also donate to science to help further stem cell research. You can see how all of this could cause lots of controversy so you can't say that I did not warn you. I talked with LOML and he is really supportive. A family member of his, although distant, had to go though hell and back to have her boys. I want to help people like her! I am not looking forward to the shots I will have to give myself but I know that it will be okay, since I will be helping someone to have a child! :) I have not really announced that I am doing it to the group but I wanted to talk about it here so that later when I am further in the process I can vent or whatever. I have made my decision and and am excited to get on with the process so I will let you all know as go! :)

I return-ith

2009-01-07T07:35:00.000-08:00

It's been soooooo long since I posted! But in my defense it has been a busy holiday season and there has been tons going on. I don't even know how I should start! It's now 2009! Does anyone else find that weird? I do I feel very old, but not in the good way. :( Oh well. I have done lots of crafty stuff for the wedding. I finished all of the table center pieces, the flowers for the ceremony, and even decorations for the sweetheart table LOML and I are going to sit at, and for the cake table. I have decided after much decision that I want to have cupcakes instead of a big huge cake. I still want a little cake at the top for LOML and I to cut and that will be much easier for LOML's sister to make and transport. :) Now I have to find a Cupcake tree that will hold 100 cupcakes! I have contemplated making my own since its just not that complicated. Although it would be adding to my do it yourself projects. I have thus far hated all of the paper products I have looked at as well as hated the price... so I went out to Michael's and got paper on sale... plenty for the save the dates, invitations, and place card tents. I am going to hand stamp the decorations on the cards and hand press the text with Sepia stamps. It will look very cool! but be very time intensive considering i have 100 of them to do. LOML and I still have to get a ceremony location and we want the church that his mom and dad got married in. I also have to nail down the times I am thinking that the reception will start at 7pm and the ceremony will be at 5pm with a cocktail hour at 6pm. But that all has to be okay by the church and if we can get that location. I also have to decorate the a box for gift cards and checks that people give us. Make the ring bearer pillow and flower girl basket. And also get the Polaroid Pogo printer for the pictures I want people to take as a way to sign our guest book. I am going to have a scrap book and have people take the picture stick it in the book then write next to it...Insta scrapbook! I also have to find camera for every table at the reception so people can take picture during the reception since I don't want a professional to do it. My dad is going to take the engagement photos so that's also on my to do list, as well as begging him to have one of his students do the formal pictures after the ceremony. Who knew planning a wedding was so complicated. I am a little sad that my parents did not want to do an engagement party, although to be fair I never asked them to but I had hoped they would ask. I really wanted one so that it would be easy to tell everyone (and get more presents...jk...) I don't think I can give myself one and I feel bad asking all of LOML family to come...since some are not so close and have kids they would travel with. Oh well....

well its almost time for me to go home and this post has been boring and gone on and on....

laters

Tired, sleepy, and wanting to go home....

2008-12-29T09:58:00.000-08:00

Morning all... or well really its afternoon.

I have been at work for way to long... and feel very blah. I want to go home and go back to sleep or maybe take a bath with some wine.... then when LOML gets home we can go to Home Depot and get some shelving for the new pantry we got over the weekend. Friday was a great day! LOML and I went out and got small gifts for all of our friends... it was tough...we have a lot of friends! But the best part was watching all of them open the gifts! I love giving gifts to people so it was very exciting for me! Lets see... we got HR boyfriend a Russian Hat that was red plaid and then I got him a matching (kinda) green plaid thong! And sadly I know he has worn both... as he disappeared shortly after opening it and came out wearing it.... he had been drinking before hand.... We also got games and drinking stuff for people... I really did have a fun time getting it all. Also that day I got LOML's gift, Guitar Hero 4. He was very happy and I was too cause I love the game and have been waiting forever for it so I feel a little bad that its more for both of us then just him. But I did say he could get a gun at the next gun show so that makes up for it. HR got LOML and I a gift too, its a cool frame with pictures of all of us and our friends over the years... some are really funny including one that makes us look like white trash ( we are camping in crappy tee-shirts and shorts drinking and smoking) then another from the same trip when a friend poured water on LOML's head when he passed out drunk! It is sooooo in my top favorite gifts! Then on Saturday we all got up and went pantry shopping... I say we all as it was not early and people came over and got dragged along as they were going to help build it from scratch... after literally 2 hours of me shopping in Lowe's and several other stores we gave up as I was getting stressed out. However in our search we came across a huge table for the dinning room that was 50% off!! so we got that. Then on the way home from dinner we stopped by Home Depot and got a nicer version of the stand alone pantry that LOML and I had fought about earlier in the day... and it was cheaper too! So that night I went crazy and got to move around all the furniture! I love doing that but now the whole room feels very LOML and I so I am very pleased. Sunday was good because I went to a High School reunion thing held by one of my teachers. I saw lots of people and had a great time!

The whole weekend was long but I was still not ready for work this morning. I am still waiting to hear from the new job people so its very frustrating. I called them again and they are still doing paperwork. agh I guess it will pan out if its meant to be. I just want to be out of my job soon!

Christmas was good, my family was nice to each other and LOML and I made it to all of our obligations. I got lots of stuff and so did he so it's not worth mentioning other then it was awesome! We are looking forward to a super New Years party... we always have one and it is always bigger then the last but this time it will be nice since we have the house! I have invited lots of people and I think it will over all end well... but we will see what I have to say about it when I have to clean up! :)

well ta ta for now!

It's been so long...

2008-12-23T08:13:00.000-08:00

I feel awful for not posting... especially since I have no convenient excuses like finals. I really have been just stressing and when I stress I just blank everything out and work to get by day by day. I am a terribly stressed person and the worst part is I create my own stress! So I have much to update on but lets start with Friday... last Friday. (whooo whooo ... creepy flash back music) I had two doctors appointments and 2 family's worth of shopping to complete. And of all the days it had to be pouring down rain.... So to start off with LOML and I got up late... then he forgot his gift exchange gift for work... thus adding another voyage on to my day. I did make it to both doctors shoulder and normal and best of all I made it though shopping for both families! I have all gifts taken care of. Hooray me! HR was already taken care of with the massive gift I got her for her birthday. I still don't have anything for LMOL or HR's boyfriend. So that will have to happen this week.. :( especially for LMOL and you will hear why at the end. So after a crazy day LOML got home and we had to get to his mom's (add packing to that list if you are counting the things I got done) we left her house at 8 or 8:30pm to drive to Blacksburg from the Kennedy family Christmas... I could mention so much but I'll leave it at large family who likes to argue... X-mas is always a debate.. but this year it went okay.... Anyway we got to Blacksburg around 12:30am and then continued to stay up to finish the gift we gave the babies... I won't mention what it was cause but we worked hard till 3am or so and went to bed.. they got an incomplete gift but we had many other things for them, so it was all good... the food on Saturday was amazing but I did not eat much as they had ham.... and I don't eat pig... I did put it on my plate (a little) but it think everyone was polite in the fact that I ate hardly anything.... but I was just not feeling the eating... I have not been lately and even worse when I eat red meat my tummy goes Topsy Turvey and its not fun... I'll leave it at that... so I told LOML (only half joking) that I would become a vegetarian again... he knows that I can't cause the doctor would kill me....the reason for the end of my vegetarian sent a few years ago. But he was still upset... I suppose I could get away with eating only chicken as it has most of what I need but I'd probably become anemic again.... not good on top of the pernicious anemia I already have. But really eating sucks!
LMOL got lots of cool things... i got a great backing dish from LOML's sister its from pampered chef... and ornaments from LOML's mom.. (we are doing our real gifts on the night before x-mas, this was the family one for the kids) We played the game they do in their family and I got a gift card for books! yippee! LOML got ornaments too and a door knocker for our house and from the game he got a grill basket, he was happy. Then on Sunday we went home. It was a good weekend. Although the best part was way before any of this stuff!
So on Friday during my shopping I was in Macy's and looking at jewelry for my mom. I as most girls do went though fine jewelry, and everything was 40% off so I looked... You see I lost my engagement ring, my defense was it was at home and in our bedroom... get your minds out of the gutter!! It happened awhile ago... and I have been devastated... I honestly expected LOML to lose his. Yes, he has a man-gagement ring.... it's another story... so anyway, LOML had offered to get me a new one. After we looked like crazy for the old one. The old one as well as his man-gagement ring is from our trip to Egypt a long time ago when we were pretending to married to ease our travel. He had wanted to get me a ring but I had told him no cause of the cost. Well there in Macy's was the perfect one...Two diamonds on either side of a Sapphire, in a white gold setting. It's what LOML and I had looked at online. I called him up and told him about it. Well later on Friday, HE GOT IT FOR ME! It's amazing and I spend the drive down to Blacksburg looking at it sparkle.... I love it!

Well back to work! I have so much more to post that I'll never finish this blog if I don't stop now... laters peoples I'm out!

at work and bored

2008-12-17T10:25:00.000-08:00

If I don't get to leave soon I think I will go crazy and not in the good way! Today has been a pretty easy day but in general boring and I have been wanting to get things going with the new job but the paper work is still stuck! That's also driving me crazy! I also have all my Christmas gifts to buy/ make for the babies... and 2 doctors appointments on Friday and a dinner that LOML and I want to go to on Friday with a co-worker of his.... There are not enough days in the year I think....

OH poop and I have buy 2 gifts for the game we play at LOML's family Christmas party... See so much stuff to do and not enough time!

And we are having a friend come from the far away place of nogirlsville... we will call him.... Robot... on Sunday and I am sure we will have him as a live in guest for a while. He is crazy as I could never hope to be... and always brings fun times.

Today Puppy was very naughty when I went home during lunch. He had taken out all of the cleaning chemicals out of the cabinets under the sink in the kitchen and dragged them all over the hardwood. He managed to open some but just chewed on others. I am totally at a loss as to what to do... He also went down on the new tile we had installed in the house and pooped twice and peed 4 yes that's right 4 times on the tile. And he managed to break the light bulbs in the box LOML left out a few days ago.... So out of frustration and the wish to keep my house clean I reinstated the CRATE. Puppy hates being crated... although has done much better since we changed it's name to bedtime and put is doggy bed in it. So I dragged the heavy thing upstairs to the kitchen and put some old towels in it. I don't know if he will go back to peeing in it as he did when he was a puppy so I did not want to put his bed in it. He has done well in it before but I feel terrible that he has to be in it for hours. And if we start putting him in it everyday.... but with the new job I will look into doggy daycare in Arlington.... But right now even thought its only been since noon... now its 4:14 and I will get home at 5:30... that's 5.5 hours.... :( i hope he is okay.....

Time for a Rant...

2008-12-16T11:02:00.000-08:00

Dear Woman who always ends up in the restroom at the same time as I do...

You are so large you have to use the handicapped restroom cause you can't navigate the normal sized stall, I get that. In fact I respect that you overate and became so bloated you need a cane to help you move around or maybe your husband cheated on you with a much younger women and you became so depressed that you ate him and are now carrying around his dead weight. But really don't try to talk to me while in the stall... we don't know each other and you and I both know that in a matter of 10 min. when you finally get your large butt on the small seat after the arduous process of getting your wal-mart pants ( I have nothing against wal-mart but they do have a nice store called Lane Byant for larger people) down, you will be holding on to the rails in your stall trying to poop what; from the sounds you are making, must be the largest turd ever in the history of poops. But since you ate your husband or just his weight in food this is to be expected. This is the work place and when you can produce such a foul stench as what comes out of your butt.... please please please stop eating whatever it is that makes the whole 3rd floor bathroom reak... and also I would really like it if you kept your straining noises and grunts to yourself while in the bathroom... and above all please do not TALK to me!

Thanks,
me

Coffee is Wonderful and so is learning new skills

2008-12-16T06:29:00.000-08:00

Okay so this morning started out really crappy... as you know its a Tuesday and Tuesdays are always crappy for me.... plus I had to get up early.... LOML had to be at work early to assemble a desk... but once at work... trying not to fall asleep in my cube...things started to improve! First was the thought of getting coffee at Starbucks with a coworker (and the prospect of leaving the evil building for a while) then an email from my boss saying she was working from home today! So now I am back from coffee and have a Grande Carmel Mochietto with white mocha in my tummy. I am still tired but in a much better mood. Coffee is so great I really can not say much more about it other then it is the best thing ever invented!

Other than coffee being so wonderful I have also learned a new skill, one that I was about ready to though out the window. I have/am learning to Knit. I know this sounds like a silly skill but sometimes I have way to much energy and feel the need to be productive, the face that you can sit down and take knitting anywhere adds to its allure. I was feeling terribly stupid because I had been using a book from HR to learn... and was not really getting very far. It was just not making sence no matter how many times I read the words! But last night I made a break though and was able to do it! Huzzah! I am very proud of my self and think that after I try my hand at a scarf I will try to make a sweater for Puppy!

Well that is all for now!

I need a mental break before I have a mental break down!

2008-12-15T11:29:00.000-08:00

Today has been a very slow Monday and it hit me that I have actually not gone x-mas shopping at all... and I have 2 family's to get gifts for! I am also in a very blah mood and want to do something productive, but am just lazy.... I have about 90 min till I can run away from work and take a nap, eat, shower, cuddle with LOML, and maybe work on wedding stuff.... we are really behind... I guess that's not true in the way that I am probably ahead of what people normally do.. but I am behind on my personal list... Oh well... I know I will get it all done... but for now I am enjoying the fact that I have finished all of my finals and don't have any schoolwork left! yay! however now I have to figure out what classes fro next semester and IF I can afford to take any...

I am also kinda pissed because I have yet to be able to put in my 2 weeks at my current job because of the slowness of the middle man HR department... I think the most productive thing I have done today was make sugar cookies on my lunch break.

Well that's it for now...

Loves!

Huzza!!! No more Finals!!

2008-12-12T11:13:00.000-08:00

I have offically finished all of my finals for this semester! I am now home and free from school! I will have my first weekend of not having to get worked up over homework!

Today is the best day ever!! Also cause LOML staying home from work with me. I think we will go out on a lunch date then go get the tile for the contractor to do tomorrow. I am so happy to get rid of the nasty carpet in the downstairs halway.

Well now tis shower time then lunch as I a starving and its 2:30 already... where does the time go?

Make My Day!

2008-12-11T10:11:00.000-08:00

Today I have done very little real work but I did complete my mandatory Security training. My favorite question was something about what should you do if you see someone who is not cleared looking at classified information.... Now there were 3 very plausible answers but the last one was totally the best... "You should tackle them to the ground and not let them go till they confess to being a spy" Yes this was an answer that my company gave people as a choice. I nearly peed my pants laughing!

Other then that I have been trying to think about what to get all my family's for Christmas... I love buying gifts but this year I have had little time to go out and look. :( I blame school.... Speaking of which I still have my history final to take and I have been procrastinating on studying... I did have time yesterday night but I fell asleep. The sleep was great but I had wanted to study! well wanted is not the best word but you understand!

Also I am excited to be able to get back to working on my do it yourself wedding! I have already made a bunch of things but now have the time to make more!! I also have to pick out bridesmaid dresses for my girls. There is just so much to do... LOML does not really care as long as I am happy but I wish he would take more of an interest then just letting me talk about it and saying "I can do whatever I want".

Nothing really interesting other then that so I will leave you....for now!!

muahahahah

Work is not fun!

2008-12-10T09:44:00.001-08:00

At work and with lots to do but no energy to do it. A while ago I had a terrible reaction to detergent and not only was it free and clear it was supposed to be for sensitive skin to! so since like September I have been itching and scratching the skin on my legs off... pleasant right? So after steroid cream and a long session of oral steroids it still has not gone away. I am currently keeping my legs moisturized and popping Benadyl like there is no tomorrow. That really helps however they make me so sleepy I can barely function. And if I don't take them will itch all over! aghhh i am so done with this!

I also still have one more final to take for the semester then I am done!!! I am hoping to take it on Thursday so I can have a restful Friday.

Other then that nothing much is going on... HR has almost finished moving in and now we are just finding places to put her stuff! I have never seen so much stuff! But then again I go thought all my stuff every year and junk most of it.... that's probably why I don't have any clothing! :)

Oh! I did end up finding a contractor to do tile work in the basement for cheap so I think that will be happening this weekend on Saturday!

well work calls... toodles!

My loverly coat has returned

2008-12-08T19:47:00.000-08:00

LOML totally found it after much pining on my part! In fact it wrote me a letter... here it is just for you all....

Dear Rachel,

Never fear I am returning, unjaded by my journey behind the sofa, as well as untouched. I was very touched by your letter to me and decided that it was cold and I am very stylish so I would come home to you. You will want to were me when you start that new job of yours... and although I did find Jesus behind the sofa never fear I was able to have a delightful time on my journey. When "LOML" found my I was very happy as I had become lost in my travels and missed you very much.

love
your coat

I was so stressed out from work, new job, finals (I still have 2 left), helping HR move in, and cleaning... I did not go to the fancy part and got sick on top of it all. Today is Monday and I got to sleep a lot, it was wonderful although I was feeling pretty crappy till very late in the day. I did manage to get my speech written and now only have to find some note cards to copy it all down on to. I still have a history final to take as I never made it to the testing center. I will do it Friday after my shoulder appointment.

Yes I am going to the doctor one more time for him to tell me that I need more surgery on my shoulder or that there is nothing he can do... so for those who don't know a few years ago I got hit by a large glass door on my right shoulder. The hit was in just the right place to dislocate my shoulder up and out. So since I was so smart and had no PTO left I found it a good idea to go to the restroom and "POP" it in to place. Yes, I leaned against a bathroom door and slammed my shoulder back into place. This worked for all of about a week till my arm turned blue and purple and I lost feeling in it. I went to the doctor and got sent to Mr. D my shoulder specialist. My work had to pay for everything but never paid me all of what they owed me for time off so I ended up at a Lawyer who now is having me go back to see what I have lost as a result of the injury. It still hurts all the time and I can't lift more then 25lbs even though I do sometimes when needed but it really hurts! Any who it is stupid and I hope that it will all soon be over.

Well it tis late and I felt awful not writing over the weekend so I hope you enjoyed!

New Job!

2008-12-05T11:35:00.000-08:00

Okay so I went to the interview and it was great! Long story short they offered me the job. I am awaiting the paperwork today or on monday. So yay me! Okay other then that today and tomorrow we will be moving HR's stuff in and getting her a key. I did have a test to take today but I missed the time slot to take it as the testing center is only open till 4 and you have to get there 90 min before that in order to take a test. So this means I will have to get up early and take the test tomorrow :( Well at least I have more time to study.

I have still yet to find my coat so tomorrow I will sadly go shoping for a new one.... :(

I know this was short but I must continue on with study time!

2 out of 4

2008-12-04T16:14:00.000-08:00

That's right as of right this very second I have completed 2 out of 4 classes for this semester! Yay!!! Okay, this is a really short update because I do have to study for a history test... yuck college sucks!

Studying sucks

2008-12-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

So today I am studying for tests..... its sucks..... Once I complete the tests I will have more to say but for now Studying sucks and blows like a cheap hooker!

Poem about snow

2008-12-03T10:33:00.000-08:00

So since it has been getting cold lately...

I feel the need to share with you a poem of sorts I wrote for my coworker about a year ago...

I hate snow
Snow is cold
Cold is evil
I hate snow!!

This is my chant to keep away the snow! Please feel free to use it to keep away the snow!

End of my work week!

2008-12-03T10:01:00.000-08:00

So today is the end of the work week for me... now don't get jealous yet because I have 3 finals to take over the next 2 days.... and I have to now go shopping for a dress to wear to my company's holiday party... all of which are very un-fun. I am still coat-less and fear for the worst that I may never see my coat again... and when I go shopping will have to buy a new one.... it took me forever to find the last one!

I have heard from the new job company.... They are waiting on one little piece then I'll have an offer letter!

I always am involved in many projects and have a nasty habit of taking on a lot and convincing myself I can do it... now I can do it but and that a BUT I end up getting stressed... so my new project is to get the ICKY downstairs hallway carpet replaced with some nice tile... now I know how to lay tile... but I have little time so having someone else do it sounded like the best idea. I mean how expensive could it be to have someone lay 40 tiles... less if you count the fact that a lot o them will end up getting cut. Lowe's is good but I want the best price. So today I am having someone come out to give me an estimate. I am excited and hope they can beat Lowe's I am trying to keep it under like 250 bucks.

Other things I have to do is not only study but also (tonight) take one of my tests! Mainly so I can say I am done with one out of 3 classes and give me more room to work on my speech for... ta da! ... speech class... the topic I choose was Education reform... I personally don't like the current public education system and would like to move to privatize education and remove all taxes that go to schools. I would rather use the money that I pay tax wise to send my child (if I had one) to a school that I choose. I think that by privatizing education you would create competition between schools and raise the standard. So if you have any links that are for Privatizing education please send them my way cause I need more sources for the speech! Also please don't post comments on how you think I am wrong unless you have evidence to back up your claims!

One of my blogging compatriots has suggested starting a book club... The first book is Twilight.. see her post here. I love books and have been meaning to read this one... so join me!! I suck at book clubs so maybe I'll keep with this one... but I promise nothing!

Late Night Lament to my Lost Coat

2008-12-02T19:49:00.001-08:00

I have a confession to make....
I have lost my coat... the only coat I have that I like and fits and was expensive! Its a wonderful Pea-Coat type coat that is a darker grey and was from Anne Kline... And its in the middle of winter! I want it back.... I know that I had it in the house but no one has been able to locate it.... so here is my lament to my coat

Dear Coat

I will miss your warmth on cold days... and how you perfectly coordinated with my cream scarf and gloves. I would love for you to return to me soon as I have a Holiday party on Saturday and need to you look cute over my dress for said fancy party. Please come back, I am sorry I have neglected hanging you in the closet and have instead just tossed you carelessly on sofas and chairs and in the back of my car. I will also try to prevent Puppy from cuddling in you when I toss you on the floor in a hurry to make it to bed. I promise not to cheat on you with LOML's sweat shits if you return. If you are being held hostage please have your capture contact me so I can arrange for your release. I would hate to see you on the street being worn by someone else. Also if someone picked you up at the party on Saturday (the last time I saw you) I will harbor no ill will towards you if in your loneliness you allowed them to take advantage of you and ware you out. I also promise not to hurt the person who may have taken you if only they would send you back my way so that I can fill the whole in my heart and stop the winter chill. Your beautiful shape allows me to show the world that I have a waist while wearing a coat, I also miss your wonderful Red tag that had that designer label that only I could see but still made me feel like a million dollars even if I did buy you cheap from a Burlington's Coat factory last year. I miss you Coat please return to me!

Ps if you have found my wonderful coat please let me know! I will love you forever!

Waiting

2008-12-02T13:06:00.000-08:00

So it is almost time for me to leave work and the waiting is killing me. Today has been crappy because its a Tuesday. I hate Tuesdays! I have meetings all day and then save for a little in the morning and a little in the evening. I also have class on Tuesdays, a class that I find so pointless.... I am just paying for the grade basically.

I have done some studying today as well as my work so I do feel slightly accomplished for the day. I want to go home have no one come over and just not do anything... but I know that can't happen.

Still no job offer letter but I guess I'll live.

I suppose I should continue about HR moving in.... LOML and I are very excited not only to be able to help her out and have someone to live with but also cause her rent money will be going to our wedding... I may have neglected to mention that in addition to all of the other stuff going on I am planning a wedding too! -But more on that later - This week will be HR's first week and she is slowly moving stuff in on Friday we will move lots of boxes and clothing for her then on Saturday the bigger stuff! She will also be bringing a new member to the house... a cat... we will see how Jazz and Puppy get along... Puppy loves other animals and is good with small dogs and used to live with cats so we are optimistic but Jazz is old so Jazz if you are reading ( I don't think so as I don't believe she upgaded to the premium Internet package at her hotel) Puppy will love you and please don't scratch him!

I think this is enought rambleing for today...

Cold bitter Cold....

2008-12-02T06:05:00.000-08:00

Well, no job offer letter yet... which was very disappointing however the in person interview is still on and they have still promised a letter this week.... I am hoping it is soon as I can't stand it here (here being work) for much longer... I had to tell Boss Lady yesterday that I was taking off Thursday for finals.... she was not pleased as that means no tickets will get completed that day... I hate being a freaking ticket monkey... I should be working on projects!!!

okay enough of that.... Last night LOML and I started helping our new house mate move in some storage and had her sign the lease! It was very excited as I am really looking forward to having another female in the house again! I am really sure that I could not live with any of our other friends! I am sure she will be making regular appearances so I will need to come up with a nick name for her.... hmmmm..... I am thinking I will call her Harmonious Roomie... or HR for short... She too has a BLOG.

Well I have another pointless meeting to attend for work so I will have to continue later......

The Start: Get Ready Set GO!!

2008-12-01T07:34:00.000-08:00

Hello fellow crazy people who enjoy reading about randoms peoples lives! I have had many blogs before, however I always find that starting a blog is the hardest part. You have no idea who I am so I clearly can't talk about daily life as I normally do and will be doing. I hate doing introductions as I find them degrading and never as truthfull as what you can find out from reading about a persons life. History however is often needed for context. So here is my personal context:

I am a person, often negative about myself and others (save the Love of my Live or LOML, who can do no wrong). I am often contradictory and hypercritical, even when trying not to be. I live in a place and own my own home with LOML. I am only 23 but sometimes feel very old or very young. I have a job doing something I like even if I don't like the job. I have a pet dog, who loves me almost as much as LOML. I have lots of friends who put up with me.I have a family that I love but can't stand at the same time... you will hear about them so don't worry.

Okay now that is done I will try really really hard to keep this updated.

Today is a monday... not only a monday but also the monday after a holiday so if feels esspially long. That is part of the reason I have chosen to start this blog... and that since I read enough of them I felt it was time to give back to the internet. I am at my job that I have been working for 2 years... and I am secretly getting another in order to get more money and to learn more. I feel very stagnent in my job and have been confined by my boss. I do have an offer letter pending for a job doing stuff much like I am doing now but with more control and chances for learning. If I get the offer letter today I will be giving my two weeks and will need to tell you all about what my boss AKA Boss Lady will say as it is becuase of her I am leaving. Also this week I have finals... yes I go to college and work full time. I am full of stress and am not a pleasent person to be around right now. I have to complete 4 tests by the end of the week. Blah! Even though I am proud of going to school and haveing an above average paying job I still feel as though college is a waist of my time. I have learned my job on the job and am good at it. It's a technical job and normally would require that I have a BS in Information Technology or Computer Science, so thats what I go to school for. But all in all I feel that one takes away from the other and both take away from my time with LOML and Puppy. I know I will be greatfull to finish but for now I am resentful of the education system and the fact that my skills are viewed as lesser since I don't have a piece of paper saying I completed 4 more years of childhood.

I will update later after I send Boss Lady my 2 weeks notice later today....